Dear Mommy,
I can't believe that it's been a month already since you've been gone. We all really miss you. Daddy still cries often, but he's getting a bit better. He cries when he thinks about how he hasn't had any dreams of you yet. We are all still waiting. It doesn't help that he is not eating or sleeping well. I've also been sleeping really late at night too because I've been watching the Heart & Greed (TVB) show that you and I were watching before you left.
Sometimes I imagine that you are here watching TV with me.
When talking with daddy, he keeps saying that he mostly feels bad for you. When you and he can finally be together without anything keeping you two apart, you had to go back to God. He obviously is very angry at God right now.
He feels that Poh Poh has always been in between you two. Never wanting you two to be together. Never wanting you two to be happy. He thinks that you've worked all your life and had to give so much of your money to Poh Poh. Even when you were admitted to the hospital, you were still taking money from your wallet to give to Poh Poh.
On the other hand, you might already know this, but Kau Kau had stopped giving Poh Poh money since he got laid off from UBC a few years ago. You probably already knew this.
I know I said it once, and I'll say it again even if you don't like it. But I swear, if Kau Kau dies tomorrow, nobody would miss him. He's such a selfish asshole. Only cares about himself. He spends so much money to fund all his hobbies such as learning how to play the stupid bass. Then he would go and get his bass tuned by some professional because he's too stupid to do it himself. He has so much money to do all these things, but he has no money to give to poh poh? What BS.
Poh Poh said that the money is in his pocket, she can't make him give her money and she's not going to open her mouth to ask for it either. I suspect she operates in the same way with you. I'm trying to explain to daddy that it may not be Poh Poh's fault that you are giving her so much money but that you did it because you are concerned about poh poh and is basically making up for whatever Kau Kau doesn't do.
If anything, daddy should have more resentment towards Kau Kau. I know I do.
Juli